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Would you rather live in a world of smoke and mirrors or bask in the clarity of the truth?- Raquel M. Sotto.

I was stuck in study, what many of you might know as study hall and I had nothing to do, nothing at all. (In fact this is where I’m writing this except on a piece of paper and not the computer but since I know I’ll post it when I’m home, I’m trying to write in the past tense) and I was looking around the class room and I saw a quote that said “Would you rather live in a world of smoke and mirrors or bask in the clarity of the truth”- Raquel M. Sotto. Yes, I’m at the type of school where teachers do cheesy things like put up inspirational quotes hoping it will somehow affect us. I’ll be honest some of it actually does seep in with me. Then again I’m an over thinker who reads stuff around the classroom when they’re bored. Back to the story I decided to answer the question and see what debate I can spark up. Because honestly if I don’t I’m going to die of boredom. The one time I actually wish I had hw…. Each sides of the question has its own problems. Living in a world where no one ever lies sounds good but it’s probably horrible. I mean yes you’ll know who likes you, who wants to be your friend, who the jerk is that stole your cookie but at the same time you’ll know what everyone else is really thinking and I mean really. And people can be mean. I know I can. I don’t judge other people before I know them, if someone judges a random person on the street I usually end up make up excuses for them on their behalf, because you never know. But when I do know someone I can be quite opinionated but usually just with personality. Like if you’re the type person who always asks me if I did the homework just so you can copy it every.single.day instead of saying no like a normal person with a back bone would, I just leave it in my locker that way when they ask me for it I can honestly say it’s in my locker. I know that’s stupid but I have this weird issue with saying no, it has something about not wanting to hurt other people’s feelings. I understand copying once but come on enough is enough… I digress too much don’t I. My point is I would tell them exactly how I feel and that they should do their own damn homework. The truth can also hurt if someone hates you for some reason, or thinks you have horrible b.o or finds you annoying or just doesn’t like your face. Sure those are useful things to know but having many people comment on your flaws every single day can be damaging to your self-esteem. Now besides flaws what about people telling you things you just didn’t want need to know. Your best friend could be in love with your boyfriend or they could have some weird fetish of licking their socks off they wear it. Think about food places, could you imagine going to burger king and having the employees tell you exactly how they make it or what’s exactly in it and for all you health freaks out there how many calories it has and which part of it is worth how much. What about restaurants? Think about having a waiter tell you “I spit in your food”, “really? 3 extra chocolate cakes and a diet coke”, “maybe you should lay off the desert there tubby”, “Are you sure you just want a salad you’re a stick” instead of saying “enjoy your meal”. The world may be safer but it just might be scarier too. Can you imagine twitter if everyone spoke their mind… never mind twitter would probably be the same minus the ads. But therapists would be downright scary. So don’t think I want to live in a completely honest world. Now a world of smoke and mirrors sounds bad too. Yah people would be forced to compliment you, key word forced, but so many people would be deceived. And lawyers and car dealers would love it. You’d go to big Sal’s Auto Shop (not a real place as far as I know i just wrote down the first thing to pop into my head) and he’ll sell you a crappy car from 1952 and you’ll think it’s the best thing in the world. Buy I guess with rose-colored glasses you’ll always think it’s great until it stalls in the middle of the highway and some huge truck runs you over . Yah happy fantasy world isn’t looking so great now is it? And for the odd reason that some college guy is reading this think of beer goggles. And as for the lawyers they’d screw over all the good people and there will be criminals running amuck. The earth would be destroyed right now if we lived in this type of world. That’s why if I had to choose I’d pick the completely honest world. I think I’d learn to adjust.

I’m sorry this is extra long class is 45 minutes and I over think waaaaay too much… Which one would you choose?

Not Perfect

(I’ll be honest…)
Okay let get a few things straight. I’m not perfect, you’re not perfect, NOBODY IS FRICKEN PERFECT. Sorry to burst your bubble but what your guardians told you was a lie. You’re not perfect, you may be perfect in their eyes and that’s totally understandable and true the extent that you’re perfect the way you are but in all reality you’re not perfect and that’s okay. Everyone makes mistakes, humans are F.L.A.W.E.D. flawed. No one in this world walks around like a robot that can do no harm. Why am I on this rampage? Because im a 3.3 + gpa student, this has to do with me being scared of failure and mom my accepting no lower than a b-. now ive gotten lower than b’s before on tests I’m not gonna lie, but it usually doesn’t drastically affect my overall grade. I decided to tell my mom about the c I got my latin test only because my teacher decided to give us 4 -5 line random translation(which brought my grade down on the test). Now translation is not really a problem because you just memorize but think of it this way. Each chapter was about 20 lines and the test was on about 8 chapters. If you do the math that means there’s a total of about 160 lines. And she gave us only five lines on the test, but a random 5 lines, so we didn’t know which one to study. That’s 5 lines out of 160 lines making that a 1/32 ( 0.03%) chance of having remembered the right one. How does my mom respond to this when I tell her? Oh she decides to lecture me on my study techniques. That wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t something I already do. I tried to explain to her how the majority of all the classes got 50’s and she tells me I’m not the other students. Alright I find that understandable argument I’m NOT everyone else but at the same time you’d think those other low scores would make my point valid but I guess to my mom it doesn’t. But forget about my grade story. There are other things you can mess up on. Everyone makes mistakes you’re supposed to learn from them. I honestly should take my own advice because half the time I feel like it’s the end of the world when I ever I make a mistake even though it’s clearly not. That shows I over react to a lot, I know I can be a drama queen – probably why I do theatre- thus a flaw showing I’m not perfect either. So if you got offended by me telling you not perfect you shouldn’t be, it’s the truth. And i’ve said it once and I’ll say it again, YOU. ARE. NOT. PERFECT. And that’s okay I’ll accept you for who you are anyway <3. And a quick side note, if you think you’re perfect -…someone needs an ego check- then you’re clearly not perfect. It drives me crazy when people walk around and think they’re the hottest thing on the planet and they’re soo perfect. Well I just found your flaw Mr. Narcissistic. And there are soo many nice people out there that I can’t say are perfect because they are too nice, or they don’t stand up for themselves or possibly have made mistakes in the past or will in the near future. But keep this in mind, not being perfect does not mean you’re not a good person. It also doesn’t mean you should change who you are. Sorry about this excessive rant but I just needed to let my feelings out. And if it helps your perfect to me <3…even with your flaws :). Any “opions”?

ps: If you ever get the idea that i’m perfect which i doubt you will, just take a look at the url at the topic of the screen and notice how it doesn’t say opinions

My MiniFreakout

I’ll be honest,

I’m a bigger YouTube nerd than I should admit and one of my favorite YouTubers is livelavalive(Mitchell Davis and Kyle Sibert). Now, me and friend were planning on going to see the dial-up tour and do the meet and greet but we had to wait until our parents gave us permission. A week or two later our parents gave us permission and the only think left to do, was well get the tickets. My mom said that we shouldn’t order the tickets until they paid and my friend’s mom said that they shouldnt pay until they got the tickets. Neither parent knew what the other was thinking but I thought of an idea to just use my paycheck and tell my mom that my friend gave me the money (then later on she would get the tickets and I would get my money back). So Thursday night comes along(or Wednesday I don’t quite remember) my mom finally goes to order the tickets and I find out the tickets in my city are sold out. I cried that night. I know I know, I shouldn’t cry over something like that but I’ll admit it, I cried. I was super excited to go and whoosh the opportunity was taken away. After many tears and explaining to my friend the tickets were sold out, Friday showed up. I was watching a Jake and Amir video where they said they were in my city, in the same place where livelavalive was supposed to be. I looked it up on their website and what do I see, an upcoming performance of livelavalive. So I click on it and they had tickets for sale. I was a bit confused cause the dial-up tour site said that they were sold out.  I go through the process of trying to order it, while frantically getting ready for an Xmas party. In the end I end up getting the tickets. There was no meet and greet but I could still see a few of my fav YouTubers. I called up my friend super excited. And now I’m extra happy because I do get to see them after all. Yah, I can’t do the meet and greet but I still get to see them. Besides when I get there I’m taking the first offer I get to meet them, whether its last minute meet and greet tickets or being pulled up on stage. Thanks for reading my incredible dorky story.  🙂